[3351] in Depressing_Thoughts
Re: Wishing I didn't have a heart
merlin@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (merlin@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Tue Sep 29 15:29:12 1992
Maybe I'm a bit of a masochist. Despite my conviction that I'd be far
better off as a Vulcan, I wouldn't choose to be devoid of emotion.
Based on past experience, I've acquired a somewhat fatalistic, and
possibly unreasonable belief that I'll never actually reach a state
in which the pleasure is actually more acute than the pain. It's all
really a moot point, though. I seem to be stuck with feelings, whether
or not I want them, so the only intelligent thing to do is to try to
get things to come out right for once, even if it's hopeless.
Now, if only I had some idea how to go about it...
