[4713] in Depressing_Thoughts
sigh
shabby@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (shabby@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Tue Nov 15 15:37:28 1994
I wish I had something important to say
I wish I would go to my classes; I keep meaning to, and something
keeps happening. I oversleep, I lame out, I ... well, that's the
explanations for the two days so far this week that I haven't attended
classes. Today I overslept. When I went to bed last night at 11:30
and woke up at 4, and was just taking a nap because I didn't feel that
tired, it'd just be a quick nap. And the alarm clock did not go off,
I'm sure I don't remember it going off.
I decided this weekend that I had a turning point here, and I can see
where this is going unless I change something and I have no krunking
idea what to change. What's it going to take for me to be able to be
unlame? If I just tell myself "be unlame" it doesn't work... I work
at it, I try to get things scheduled right, I just get distracted or
something, and I'm just going down in flames right now...
And in the meantime, life stinks, too.
I'm not doing anything of any worth anywhere, and I'm sick and tired
of it.
