[4605] in Depressing_Thoughts
Drifting.
???@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (???@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Mon Jul 11 06:55:45 1994
Almost 7 Am. Another night lost. Another week lost. Another $100 squandered.
Another week of futile evasion. When will I stop and face the responsabilities
I have? I have mourned losing 2 years of my academic life at MIT, and the
possibility of losing a third one in my home country. Why can't I move on,
face the future with strength, with dignity? Instead of worrying about the
impossibility of getting into grad school, I should be doing everything in
my power to increase my chances, be productive, improve myself. I linger here
instead. I rot here. I have become a joke, an insult to my parents, to
my own capabilities.
