[3715] in Depressing_Thoughts
well, this is the right place...
shabby@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (shabby@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Tue Mar 16 03:50:01 1993
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
sorry. I'd rather have screamed in real, actually, but I don't think
my throat could take it.
I hate myself for punting so much. For being so arrogant. AGAIN.
And it's gonna cost me this time, because I had fair warning, and I
told myself as well as my parents that I'd do my best, and I'm letting
everyone including myself down. And now, if I can't salvage this
term, I'm outta here next term, to some school closer to "home." This
is probably the right thing to happen, for my future, since I
apparently can't handle the wide range of possibilities for punting
available on the MIT campus. Athena alone accounts for SO much of my
punt time.
I'm NOT ready for tomor-, err, today's exam in 6.802. I don't know
what I can do anymore. In the scramble to get 6.170 done on time
(it's not) I forgot that I needed badly to study for this exam and
now... well... now, I get what I deserve.
I dunno. Maybe I should drop the class and attempt to take it yet
again next year...
sigh... Like last term, I'm doing best in my HASS class, because I
have no delusions that I'm a natural for music. So I work. I know I
am capable of getting good grades, DAMMIT!!!
I feel like going and smashing something gratuitously...
