[3589] in Depressing_Thoughts
re: thinking....
lisam@LAB214.BELLCORE.COM (lisam@LAB214.BELLCORE.COM)
Sun Jan 24 20:32:56 1993
Well lorraine... That is sorta my point. My life does feel like a
could have been. Okay, so I cannot dwell on the things that have
passed me by, but doesn't this reflect negatively on my emotions?
For instance, is there something about me that causes the could have beens?
At this time I could have been married. It never happened, he dumped the
engagement 1 year before. okay, better to know now than later.
I could have had a wonderful guy in my life, I was confused and unsure and
LOST BOTH! Cannot say completely lost both, we are all still friends.
For which I am VERY thankful for.
It is really hard to leave these things behind only because they make
me feel that it is my fault they happened. Okay, maybe a conscious,
I cannot say guilty conscious, but just afraid to get hurt or hurt
anyone else's feelings.
If only things were different...........
If only things would get better SOON!
;-(
