[2910] in Depressing_Thoughts
Re: pills and shrinks
leira@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (leira@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Fri Apr 10 14:49:15 1992
It's a very frightening concept that you might have to take some sort of drug
in order to feel like your normal self, but when you haven't felt like your
usual self in weeks, and you've missed 2 periods entirely due to the stress of
the problem and you can't get to sleep at night but when you finally do you
can't drag yourself out of bed in the morning because there's no point, and you
can't stand to have anyone touch you or get to close to you but you can't stand
to be alone, and you're afraid to see anyone because you know you'll snap at
them even if they're your close friend and they haven't done anything to deserve
it, and you can't go to the grocery store to do your shopping because the
crowds are too scary and you'll snap at everyone there, too, and you can't
concentrate on your problem sets and you can't do any of your hobbies because
you lack the concentration but then you can't do *enough* at any one time to
occupy all of your brain so this awful feeling will go away, then it can be a
good thing.
I had to take Xanax once (it's a mild sedative). Luckily, I only needed a few
days worth and it was a pediatric dosage, at that. Nevertheless, it scared me.
Xanax is addictive if you take enough over a long enough period of time. As
scary as it was, though, it's scarier to think how much longer it would have
taken to get over the problem if I *hadn't* had the prescription.
