[2731] in Depressing_Thoughts
What do people want from me? (What do I want from myself?)
amgreene@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (amgreene@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Tue Jan 28 18:00:13 1992
Item. Sunday night at dinner someone accused me of something I'm
proud of not doing -- or do I?
Item. Recently I've wanted to do various things that I know I
shouldn't. Things that would hurt people, things taht would piss
people off. So far, I've stifled these temptations; but I don't
want to.
Item. There are a number of things which I need to get done which
have been sitting on my desk for weeks.
Item. The discussions on the Conservative Judaism mailing list are
making me despair of ever finding a branch of Judaism which is
``authentic'' to me and which will be accepted by everybody.
Item. I promised to do something for someone and kept putting it
off until it was too late to get it done in time.
Conclusion: I'm a confused, irresponsible person who is an imposition
and an inconvienience to his friends.
