[2416] in Depressing_Thoughts
homesick?
debbo@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (debbo@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Fri Oct 4 11:39:26 1991
i am 3000 miles from everyone i care about.
i am reasonably sure that i can do the work and get this degree, but
i'm not at all sure i want to.
i want very much to go "home" and be with people i know and am
comfortable with and who love me, or at least be on the same coast
with them. ... but i don't really know where home is right now. it's
not schenectady (where i grew up). and the trouble with getting
attached to somewhere like mit is that it's transient; almost eveyrone
i care about in boston will be gone within 3 years, many of them in
less time than that.
i am afraid i am here just to prove i can, and i'm not at sure that's
a good enough reason. but on the other hand, i'm not sure that's the
only reson i'm here.
and i don't know if maybe i'm just scared.
i need some advice ... either tell me this is going to get better and
i just have to wait it out, or tell me how to make this decision.
