[1899] in Depressing_Thoughts
Life, love, longing
jcbourne@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (jcbourne@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Fri Feb 22 23:01:53 1991
i watch the world; i see the mistakes; i make mistakes; i see the pain;
i feel it; i watch the world go about its way. i find that when i try to
intrude upon its way, i get shoved aside, trampled, or ignored. i know
people who have wanted to change the world; make it a better place; put
it on the right track. they've become disillusioned, bitter, and
cynical.
i love my life, even when it at its very worst and i feel like hiding
away and forgetting about the whole thing. the pain, the learning, the
longing, the love, the dreams, the reality; this is what it is to be
alive. i cannot say that i am truly happy, for there will always be
things i want but cannot have; feelings i cannot express; people i don't
understand.
life is an ongoing adventure; love is an elusive quality of life;
longing is what i feel, always...
and i long for the love, the love of life, the love of the world, the
love of one man...
