[1439] in Depressing_Thoughts
passivity
whycare@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (whycare@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Thu Aug 30 17:08:18 1990
I can't get out of this state. It seems to have been
engrained in me. It has been me for so long. I can't even
force myself to scream when I'm frustrated. It's a lingering
take everything as it's given to you. What's worse is that
it actually feels wrong to be assertive. Something pulls
me down when I try to get up. It's the thing that keeps me
from living as well as from slashing my throat.
