[1015] in Depressing_Thoughts
Re: Above All
jik@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (jik@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Wed Mar 21 22:18:02 1990
Oh, Pshaw.
Everything in life doesn't have to have great, earth-shattering,
profound meaning. If you don't want to go to the Concert in Bad Taste
(and, by the way, you didn't really miss much), why should that mean
you're "placing honor and ethics above all else?" Maybe it just means
that you don't like dirty humor?
And the stuff about a girlfriend.... why do you assume that you
*have to* be interested in having a girlfriend? What if you don't
want to have a girlfriend right now? The impression I get is that the
reason you're depressed about girlfriends is that you for some reason
believe that you're *supposed to* have one, so it's wrong that you
don't! That's foolish.
Over and over again, you have this battle with yourself, and you
still haven't decided it, because *there's no decision to make*.
"Rhu" and "Andrew" are *the same person*, YOU. The only distinction
between them is the artificial one you have drawn in your own mind.
I'm not going to start listing all the things you've done since I've
known you that reduce to rubble any claims of yours that you are
"afraid of the consequences of every decision [you] make." That would
be redundant, because I've already done that to you several times.
You've got to stop looking for reasons to divide your personality, and
just let it be what it is. You'll be a lot happier.
