[4497] in Depressing_Thoughts
argh
sorokin@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (sorokin@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Wed Apr 13 16:19:37 1994
I *hate* being this furious. I'm walking down the hall, feeling hosed
but cheerful, and suddenly, boom, I'm outraged all over again. And then
I can't think, and I get focussed on being angry, and I think of all the
really nasty, cutting, hurtful things I want to say, and it doesn't get
me anywhere because of course I won't really say them. Is it lack of
nerve, or is it sanity? I can't even tell anymore.
I want to go pick a fight. I want to go pick *this* fight; I want to
scream and throw things and not keep behaving rationally and I don't
have anywhere near enough time to.
argh.
