[4474] in Depressing_Thoughts
bad reasons to stress out
woof@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (woof@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Wed Apr 6 12:24:30 1994
how come, whenever i have real things to stress over, i.e. graduation,
three exams, and a late paper, i worry over peripheral things, like
whether or not i'm fat, how to get in better shape, whether or not
my (blood) little sister is totally taking advantage of me about the trip
to europe we're going on, and alot of other things that bear no relevence to scoolwork.
i'm really hung up on the body image thing, and rationally, i know that's
ridiculous... i have nothing to worry about, except being out of shape, and
i have started to exercise. swimming is fun. sort of. i'm too out of
shape to enjoy it, i think i may start running instead. (i don't not enjoy
swimming because i have to be seen in a swimsuit {or less} in order to do it,
but that doesn't help when i get in a lousy mood about the way i look. i'm
not enjoying it, because for the first time since i can remember, i don't feel
entirely in control in the water... it's kind of scary to be exhausted and
be surrounded by water. i've never felt that way before, and that's f
frustrating.)
and on top of it all, i feel lonely, and that also is a totally bogus worry, and
I know it. i have too much to do to stress about these things, so I dumped them
here, i hope no one objects...
