[4444] in Depressing_Thoughts
anger
abbe@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (abbe@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Sat Mar 26 01:41:04 1994
i keep getting randomly angry. not in a violent, explosive way. just
a constant feeling of anger. very dull. but still there for long
periods of time. it's almost more like frustration than anger. i
have no particular reason to be angry. i have nowhere to direct my
anger, no reason to want to direct it at anyone, no cause to be angry
*at* something. but the anger is still there.
sometimes i think it went away, i can pretend not to be angry, and
laugh at a joke or have a fun conversation, but then i get back into
the same mood again and it comes right back at me. and if i'm not
careful i could wind up directing my anger just to get rid of it. i
don't like to get angry at people or things even if i have a cause to
be angry at them; it's even worse to just explode for no good reason
at all.
sigh.
