[4292] in Depressing_Thoughts
Re: horor vacui
adwright@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (adwright@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Wed Feb 9 23:57:07 1994
I can relate to all that.
I am not in the least the college-type person.
Not an academician in the slightest.
There's too much bull-shit.
Everything I've learned so far since coming here,
I could have learned in a fraction of the time,
teaching myself. But no, you have to go the
route, and do the plan, and get that fucking
degree, your ticket to a lame-ass cog-gear of
a fucking job, to get yourself set up in your
own private little shoebox of hell (life).
Gee, I can't fucking wait.
'Course, I imagine if you're doing what you
enjoy, then you can make it into something more
than a comfartmented lovely. At least that's
the going theory, yes? But, I still haven't
figured out what the fuck I enjoy doing.
Shit, I wasteda term diddling with something
that made me like to imbibe my own vomit,
and, thanks to fin-fucking-goddamn-aid, if
my current theory doesn't pan out, I'll be
fugged, as they say.
What I really want to do is write ...
Ah, there's something I enjoy doing. But I
don't relish the idea of going through the
MIT-writing-grist-mill to get a piece of
paper that says, "okay, now you can write".
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu-CK.
