[3545] in Depressing_Thoughts
grades and other
shabby@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (shabby@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Wed Jan 6 13:03:15 1993
I emailed my parents with my grades (which were lower than I estimated
they'd be when I told them over vacation) and I got email this morning
saying to be in my room to get a phone call tonight at 7. They also
said they're VERY disappointed. What makes it worse is people all
around me telling me how normal it is to get bad grades and how
acceptable it is, or whatever, and I don't _want_ to start thinking
that way. Well, not all around me, but, people here and there...
I wonder if my parents are being unreasonable. They probably aren't,
since the grades I got, I already told them I didn't work as hard as I
could have. I've been working hard to keep the communication open
between me and them, and tonight I get to be lectured even more...
Sigh. I told them I didn't want to be lectured... I told them that I
feel really bad. I told them I want to stay here at least one more
term. God, if I do as badly next term as I did this term, well, I'll
have to seriously reconsider staying here. But... I dunno.
In addition, it's lonely out here... talking about zephyr lives,
that's _all_ I have. Oh well, that's what I get for not trying...
for being almost afraid to try, actually... oh whatever.
foo.
