[3371] in Depressing_Thoughts
bad synapses
dcctdw@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (dcctdw@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Mon Oct 5 03:14:35 1992
It seems that there are quite a number of faulty neurons in
my head: my discipline is off; my motivation is off; my
sensitivity to other people is off; i'm quite uncertain of
any of my redeeming qualities, and i'm worried that i'm
starting to pick up some total-scumbag traits...
i guess it comes down to trust: i'm starting to lack the
trust my friends have in me, and i'm starting to question
the trust i have in me... maybe the Right Stuff is there,
but then again, maybe it's not... other things have been
slipping over the years; who knows what else is going...
maybe sleep will restore this... here goes 7 hours worth...
