[3326] in Depressing_Thoughts
fuck
sdcfred@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (sdcfred@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Sun Sep 20 01:22:33 1992
life sucks.
Cambridge sucks.
This country sucks.
A life being worth $33 sucks.
I've dealt with old relatives dying of natural causes.
I've dealt with teammates committing suicide.
I've dealt with a best friend's father killing himself.
But this is different.
1) I knew him and I liked him, and he wasn't somebody 3000 miles
away who I only talked to every 6 months.
2) This was murder.
3) I was there. I was 50 yards away near an open window and I didn't
hear anything. I saw him. Now all I can see is him lying there
gasping for breath. dying in front of me.
I didn't know him very well. I feel like I'm feeling sorry for myself.
I don't think I've ever been this SAD. Depressed, yes. Sad, no.
And to think, last night it was exciting and kind of cool that I was
there. When I found out 2 hours later that the guy was dead, it was
shocking. When I found out his name 14 hours after that I couldn't
deal.
I'm glad Vicki was there when I found out.
I really hope nobody lets this one just go by. This should be remember
or it WILL happen again.
blargh
