[3313] in Depressing_Thoughts
Waiting
jik@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (jik@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Sat Aug 29 21:15:56 1992
Counting the days for the past week....
Counting the hours for the past day....
Counting the minutes for the past several hours....
And now it's past time, and she said she'd call, and she hasn't, and
there's no answer at her house, and I haven't seen her in over a month
or talked to her in over a week, and I find myself asking such
horrendously unfair (both to her and to me) questions like, "Doesn't
she *understand* what it's doing to me that she said she'd call, and
she hasn't? Doesn't she know how much I've been looking forward to
that phone call for the past week, waiting to hear her voice again?"
I'm sure this mood will evaporate when the phone rings (or, more
accurately, when the call waiting goes off and the modem disconnects)
and it's she on the other end of the line. But right now, I feel like
banging my head against a wall hard enough to cause bruises.
