[2997] in Depressing_Thoughts
what really sucks...
tlyu@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (tlyu@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Sat May 9 05:25:44 1992
...is having tried to turn off your emotions for more than five years,
then trying to turn them back on. I have found that this causes no
end of problems, but is much less painful than not admitting to
feeling anything. The downside is that I have to learn how to feel
again, and that's terribly confusing at times. For five years I have
had a rather extensive wall surrounding me, trying to insulate myself
from things that could hurt me. I wound up getting hurt more in the
process.
Now what really sucks is trying to deal with all this while struggling
with what few classes I have remaining. CAP's going to have a ball
with me now... 28 registered units, an incomplete hanging around from
last term, and other such nastiness.
*sigh*
At least I'm dealing with it now, rather than trying to do it later,
when I'm on grades.
This meeting is getting dangerously close to the 3000 mark....
