[2811] in Depressing_Thoughts
why, yes, i'll forgive
dcctdw@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (dcctdw@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Tue Mar 10 12:34:48 1992
Not.
My mom was in the hospital last year due to a back injury. I really didn't
find out about it until afterwards, since i was only in sporadic (once a
month or so) contact with my parents. So i didn't send a card or call or
anything -- granted, that was lame on my part... But my dad was really
pissed back then, and he still has the grudge still...
I was hoping that perhaps i could go home over Spring Break, that maybe my
parents would accept me (my canonical MIT weirdness, from fantasy to
assassin to long hair) as i am, but that's a hope filled will blaster holes
now...
I hate not having an anchor. I feel like i don't belong anywhere. My
contemporaries are graduating. (And i barely know them, which is another
depressing thought.) I'm taking two classes, but i'm as busy as my friends
who are taking four. My pride of being good at helping people is
dissolving into the thin air it was made of.
I don't belong in L.A. I often feel i don't belong here. Worst of all,
things aren't quite so keen between Andrea & I.
Heh.
Last spring, i was depressed for no good reason. At least this spring, i
have something tangible.
