[27] in Depressing_Thoughts
I feel so mundane...
amgreene@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (amgreene@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Fri May 13 00:05:01 1988
I look around me and everyone seems to be creative: either they're writing
Assassin games or they're in some music group or they're doing something
else CREATIVE. And I just tool and hack computers and I get stuff done,
and I'm not stupid or anything, but I feel so dull and uninteresting. Who
the hell really cares that I can implement Newton's Method in PostScript
or Animals in TeX? What human being will look in awe at my 8.044 problem
set? Who gives a damn that I have written songs that I can't perform, or
that I've written stories that I can't finish. My 21.641 (Harmony and
Counterpoint) work was decent, but it wasn't the sort of stuff I'd listen
to on any regular basis.
I'm just a humdrum, boring, run-of-the-mill person.
On a totally unrelated note, I walked out of the movie tonight. Never did
that before, but I was really hating it. It overflowed twice, though.
That sure increases one's sense of alienation.
*sigh*
