[2110] in Depressing_Thoughts
I can't get any work done
jtidwell@ATHENA.MIT.EDU (jtidwell@ATHENA.MIT.EDU)
Sun May 5 20:52:45 1991
Over the past few days, I've watched my state of mind alternate between
apathy and panic - with nothing in between. Most of the time, I'm thinking,
"You know, there's not much I can do now that can jeopardize my chances
of graduating, and I really don't want to do this work right now, and there's
nothing I can do at the moment to make my thesis work go faster."
But sometimes, with no warning, I panic. "Oh my God, this is already late
and the end isn't in sight, my thesis isn't going to get finished in time,
I'm going to ruin my grades in the last two weeks of class, I'm going to
blow my interviews and not get any job at all", etc. etc.
And, of course, it's absolutely impossible to get any decent work done
during either of those states of mind. Either I don't care enough to
do anything, or my mind is spinning its wheels while I break out in a
cold sweat and have this overwhelming desire to run screaming out of the
room...
